So sorry for all that you are dealing with. I know in another post you said you were not seeing your T right now, but it really looks like you NEED too. Please call and get in there ASAP. You have been on such a rollercoaster for awhile now - Josh, daughter's pregnancy not going right, the poster here who really caused you stress, etc. You have got to take care of YOU Pat........ and we are here to listen and support the best we can. As pointed out above, please try to take one step today to help yourself, get some fluids in you, try some food, do something please !