I've struggled with meds for about 15 years now and I wanted to share some of my experiences... I hope it will be an inspiration to keep on going through the problems with meds to find something that is worth it.
Despite all the problems I have had, I now have meds that make my life better

Mis-diagnosis: like a lot of BPers, I was misdiagnosed for many years, I was on drugs that didn't work - even made things worse - sometimes at doses and combinations that caused nasty side effects...

Post diagnosis
Not enough drugs: my first experience of the ***right*** drugs were prescribed and managed by a doctor who didn't really have a clue, things improved, but were far from good, the dose was too low, and I needed additional drugs to make things worse... I was putting up with side effects and still not better...

Stopping meds: I've lost count of the number of times (more than both hands at least!!!) I have stopped meds, and everytime its ended in disaster...

Finding the right drugs - a hard but worthwhile journey. I got a new pdoc and we tried lots of different drugs, some with really crappy side effects. It took a long time coz I got every side effect possible and was not responsive to heaps of meds!
Now I have a combination of drugs that works with managable side effects... ... I promise it was worth it all...