I could, but then for me it means that I really have to be on a higher dose, and that's the last thing I want. But I haven't been myself, what so ever. I've gotten really down.... and I have looked at things that I should not look at... but one thing saved me from buying something to really do the job. As of right now, the si that I have been doing is not of to much harm to me... it's just uncomfortable. and it's not enough. I've been searching for more........ I'm in trouble.... and I do know this.... there is more stress on me... more than in a while now.... stress triggers Psycotic break downs..... and stress always wins. It's almost like I can't win..... because..... and I don't even know why?!