thank you to everyone. i feel better. i'm not so ashamed anymore. to kimmydawn: you shed a light on why i probably don't react to things as i should. in my head i'm thinking, "don't upset the other person, you don't want them to be mad at you!" i always knew that i needed to speak up, but it didn't really click as to why i couldn't until now. thank you.
for hillbunny: my mom seems to be similar to yours with the whole "get over it" thing. i've learned that my mom has so many problems that she's never gotten over, so I've finally learned to not take what she says to me personally. that was hard. "the unhealed wounds of our parents are carried down to us." (i just heard that on tv, coincidence?) people like us need a lot of compassion. probably mostly from ourselves.