Triggering:

I made it two years without s.i and then a few weeks ago I just lost it just completely. I feel like such a failure, I'm upset that I let myself slip and perhaps it was due to me pushing my feelings away. Letting things slide or brushing them off and just life and it's obstacles anyways. Now that I relapsed I can't seem to get back on track, I think that's what scares me the most. And as much as I want to get back on track for that moment I felt how I use to feel and I actually enjoyed it. I felt free I felt better I know I'm not okay and I already know that this is not a solution to my problems, but I can't seem to make sense of all of this. I just don't know where to go from hereFeeling completely lost