I've tried to make myself sick once before, but I've never succeeded at it. It's just that I hate school so much I'd do anything to avoid it. I've missed a ton of days due to social anxiety, and I wasn't there last year as I was doing online school. I'm shy, and I don't talk to anyone. I go on facebook and see that everyone goes places with friends and has fun in school, and I don't. I didn't want to go today because they were having a party in Journalism, which would mean everyone acting out of control which I just can't handle.

My mom tried to unplug the TV so I couldn't watch it, and I shoved her as hard as I could, and was physically aggressive. That's why I think that I'm evil. I've hit people before, shoved my mom into a wall, hit my sister in the neck with a huge full water bottle. I don't know what my problem is. But that isn't who I am. It scares me that I could actually hurt someone one day. I'm a good person, so I don't know what happens.

Right now my life is going nowhere. I've missed so much school that I'll probably have to repeat the grade for the second time. I bet no colleges will accept me, and I'll be on welfare for life. I'm going nowhere... I might as well give up now.