Treehouse--I will never forget what he said and how toxic it made me feel--and it immediatly sexualized any touching, I think. It seems whacko. The only way it could not be his problem is if he meant touching would lead me into some sort of delusion and then we'd have to work through that. I don't know how valid that idea is. I don't think it's valid, and if it were valid, I think the point of therapy is to work through this stuff. I think about leaving him a lot. More and more. The whole last year has been really painfull. I think he thinks I shouldn't need so much emotional support after this long with him, that I should have friends for that, or be getting it from my family. Maybe that is shame/guilt talking. I don't feel smart about this at all, just confused and hurt...and afraid.