Well, what happened was I did end up calling him-- but a lot later when I was drunk out of my mind. I think I babbled about being sorry and that I couldn't believe he wasn't angry before and I don't think he was angry then. Like you said, invisigirl. He was happy to know I was okay... Sorry I'm being weird about this though. This whole thing about real life, and he's actually caring about me like I was family or something, it's just really blowing my mind, haha... And thanks invisigirl. You're hardly invisible, haha. You guys' help on here is amazing.

@Sannah: I really don't know. But I'm definitely going to try and find a therapist..... I guess part of me isn't really sure I deserve it. Andy is the one who should've lived and gotten a therapist and moved on. I don't know. I'm being weird. I'll still try and see how getting one works out.