First, thank you PT52, blueoctober, Ryask, and sugahorse for your input. Always appreciate insight into my situation.
PT52 - Hypomanic seems to be a good conclusion, and getting a psych evaluation sounds like the way to go. Totally agree the "Who am I?" can be over complicated by people (meaning me)...I mean the therapist that I see has continued to tell me that this is what happens to people in their 20s, just out of school. Thank you you for your advice.
blueoctober - I agree with you 100%...we have just one body and it should last. I just can't stop! And I mean....working out or performing some activity is ALL I think about. Obsession is the word, but maybe "Obdiction" might be better. LOL! And I totally agree that by me being busy, I show a different side of me...not the true side. I hide my feelings...I mean when I get introduced to people it is normally in the form of me overcoming my accident, so I feel displaying a certain side (an unstoppable attitude) is what people should see. If it makes them conquer something easier, then AWESOME! I know I am the one to decide what is healthy for me, it is just a little bit flawed. I feel if I feel pain now to get me to a certain point than it was worth it. And I have spoken to a Psychiatrist, just about something else, which made me feel like I embarrassed myself so speaking to her again will be a challenge. Thank you for your advice!
Ryask - I did look up hypomania/mania and started to write down situations that I have experienced which match up with hypomania. Thank you for your advice!
Sugahorse - Totally agree - the idea of not being able to do something when I get older scares me to death, and when I run I think about not pushing myself as hard. But I think of alternative ways to help me recover so that I can push myself harder the next day...STUPID! I have been told to swim or bike...and I do to an extent. I just have a social element with running which I don't have with swimming or biking. It is difficult to switch. Thank you for your advice!
Cherrios!