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Nov 24, 2010, 01:55 PM
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Member Since: Mar 2009
Location: So Cal
Posts: 3,342
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Oy....
I know I should talk with her about this. I'm so scared though. I'm afraid of making her angry or insulting her. I'm afraid if I show her a copy of this post that she is going to think I don't want to learn from her and that it is going to set a tone for our work together.
I get that honesty and trust and being able to say what I need is very important, but what if I show her this and she thinks I'm being an unruly client or that I don't want to learn. What if she says that she doesn't want to see me anymore or asks me to leave because she is angry.
I don't want conflict with her...or any T. My old T's I was able to tell them when I needed something. It was difficult but I could do it. I think that it is harder now because this T is so new to me and I haven't felt that connection with her yet.
I will try and print this off for her. I will not just not show up. If I end up choosing to not work with her, I don't know if I could tell her to her face and explore it with her because of my own fears. I would discuss it with her over the phone though.
There is another Therapist in town that I actually wanted to see first, but I went with this T because she was the one referred to me. I have asked this other T for a consultation. I feel guilty for that. Is that wrong?
I don't know why I am having such issues around this, but I don't like it at all. 
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