You are all so nice, its great to come back here and read about the experiences of others.

Sugarhorse - that's great advice thanks! Ironically a friend of mine moved to south africa for treatment- was a special clinic though, but i think italy is similar in that sense.
I don't want to over simply things, but I tried to speak to a doctor and got a ''but what's actually wrong.. are you fighting with your boyfriend?"

Skully - That sounds so brave, I felt closer to that when I discolosed to my friends back home. Not perfectly stable, but trusted the knew me enough to know when I was me, and not me. Unfortunately, its so new here.

Sugarhorse - ''she needs to be aware of me having some days where I just will not be able to really do my job'' i love it. I need to be able to do that! Not just work wise, but won't it be great if people just listened to something as simple as.. Today pretend Im not here and left you alone.

Trippin - Youre so right, and I admire you're security in yourself to be able to do that. I wish people understood or cared to know more. The stigma here is huuge, just listening to conversations others have had around me, not knowing about my own problem scares me. I dont want to be ostracized or called mad you know.

Thanks again for reading and taking the time. x