(((((((((((((((((((Debbie)))))))))))))))))

I am sorry to hear that you are having such a hard time right now. I know how difficult it all must be.

I am sorry your having a hard time communicating with your T also. After a lifetime of not sharing and isolating our true feelings, even after therapy, it is still hard to break old habits and really share what is on our mind. I really know how that can be. I frustrate myself because there are times when I wish I could be forthcoming with my thoughts and feelings but my fear prevents me from sharing. I really understand what your saying about this.
I suggest this alot because I find it helpful, at least with me. Have you thought about writing a letter or an email to your T and explaining how your are feeling. I know you spoke of "avoiding conflict". I do this also and that is why writing is a better option for me and thought maybe it would work for you.

I wish there was more I could do to ease your pain right now. All I can do is say that I understand how your feelings. Your not alone.

Huggles,

Jen