I've always fancied older guys, but now I think I'm in a real problem, as I'm only 20, and there's this 38 year old guy which I really like, but ... 18 years? I think that is quite too much, especially when I'm only 20...
Isn't it?
But I just can't connect with guys more my age... none of them.. Everybody tells my that I'm more like a 30 year old , than 20....

Though to be honest, I'm mostly afraid of my familys reaction...
But .... I just really feel like he's my soulmate..... :S