Elysium, I don't think your messed up, I think your T made a mistake in the direction she was taking in session. You aren't a bad patient or a bad person, your T just doesn't know you very well and also made a bad choice.

I would be upset and probably get really openly upset. I'm not big on giving T copies of things I write, I prefer to tell them in my own way. If they don't like it, that speaks more to their personality than it does to me. Are you going to go back to see this T again? Why did you stop seeing your old T?