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Originally Posted by geez
I had my appt this morning as I do every Tues and I had planned what I was going to share and then I shut my feelings down. I felt distant from T (now I feel even more distant and as you read on you'll see why). I found it hard to just talk about the lighter stuff and was screaming in my head - talk! just talk! - say what you need to say! but it was too hard in that moment.At the end of my appt she asked what I would like to do next (make an appt is what that translates to - or not). I asked her what her schedule looks like and she said next week she's 'off' and then recanted and said that her M, Tues, Wed was booked up with students coming back to school. WTF IS THE POINT OF HAVING A STANDING APPT THEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (I screamed in my head) She then told me that she got booked up but she could meet with me on Thurs of next week so I took that time. In addition to that she did offer the following Tues same time per usual.I know I probably sound like a brat right now but i feel so distant from T right now. I'm hurt that she gave up my time Tues of next week to someone else. I guess I should look at the positive side that she had an opening on Thurs? I'm a flexible person in general and I originally had a 10:30 standing appt on Tues and that got switched to Tues 11:30 kind of by her influence (I don't mind that). Sorry for witching ........... I'm feeling sad right now.... scraps ... nothing but scraps.  |
((((geez)))))
Ah man I understand! I would feel sad to if I was dedicated to that appointment slot and had a standing appointment time/day that was taken up by a newbie. Maybe she though (since your appointment obviously wasn't in her book yet) that you wouldn't mind so much since she was going to see you for sure anyway? She doesn't seem to have known how connected to that day/time you were. I doubt she would have consciously "replaced" you with someone else. She probably knew you were a flexible person and thought it wouldn't bother you.
I am at the point where I am able to say certain things. If I think my T is insensitive to something or that he doesn't care about me at a particular moment in time, I say so. I'd say something at your next appointment so that your T knows how much she hurt you. Turn it into a lesson for her, because I don't think she knew she was being insensitive.
