I was having a really bad day the monday before last and I found myself sitting in group wanting to SI. It's stupid because I havn't done that in about 6months. I havn't even wanted to do it for a while now. I had talked about an abuse situation earlier with my t so that may have been what triggered it but it really freaks me out that I could so easily fall back into bad habits. Group was still going on for another 30min after so by the time I had gotten out I was over it enough to restrain. I've talked about the abuse with other people since then and havn't wanted to do that so why was then any different?