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Nov 24, 2010, 10:58 PM
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Member Since: Mar 2009
Location: So Cal
Posts: 3,342
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Originally Posted by SenatorPenguin8081
Are you going to go back to see this T again? Why did you stop seeing your old T?
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I will probably see her at least once more next week. I would feel bad if I didn't at least go and make an attempt to talk with her, although the idea terrifies me.
I stopped seeing my old T because I moved out of state for work. I miss my old T so much. She is doing a good thing for me though. We are having weekly phone calls while I transition to this new T. It's so hard....I told her when I left that I wanted to hire her to be my personal, private therapist. LOL!! We both got a good laugh out of it. I felt so comfortable with her and I am so missing that right now.
I know I should give this T a chance. It's just really hard because she works differently than my old T. It just pisses me off when I explain something to her and tell her about something I went through and in the next second she takes over the conversation saying things like "Oh, yeah I did that too when I was just starting out as a professional. That's normal...everyone does it a little" and then goes on to tell stories about herself. Not only that but she starts sharing other things about herself and her family structure. It really mad me angry when she said something like "I can understand what you are saying because, in my family...I'm Jewish, and blah blah blah....blah blah blah....and I wasn't abused or anything like that but blah blah blah". And this went on for an hour and a half. I wanted to scream and sob because I felt so miserable and sitting there listening to her talk about herself was just making me feel worse.
I'm not trying to be selfish or narcissistic. I know that the world does not revolve around me...but geez....I don't want to hear "oh yeah, me too" or "here...read this handout I wrote". I was so afraid to speak up and tell her what I needed; afraid she'd get mad and not like me, or she'd say something that hurt me.
I'm just so not up for this crap right now. I need my old T....but I can't have her. 
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