I don't know why it feels so good to hold T's hand. If I think about it in an adult way, it's weird and gross. But, there I was, asking to hold her hand as we walked to my car. I don't know if it was the child part holding Mommy's hand, or "me" holding Ts hand. Or both. I didn't know I was this needy.

Now that I think of it, I wanted to hold my first Ts hand too. But she wouldn't let me. Neither would any of my other Ts. It doesn't feel sexual, just so very, very good.

Of course I sent her an email about this already. She knows a child part likes to hold her hand. But why? I know my mother held my hand when I was little. It's so strange that I want hand-holding so much.