'I have had constant chest pain since I've posted this...and i truly don't think it will go away...until I talk with her but, I've basically been using MOVIES to distract me, because even if I'm not paying complete attention to the plot, it allows me to zone out without thinking about it, i can just stare at the screen at some points and when I'm ready to think, I find myself intrigued by the movie again and I plan on Journaling. Thanks for the comments

--Sannah, I just think that my 'T' is dishonest, not in an unethical way but, in a...
I have to have unconditional positive regard and not tell you how I truly feel, because that is my job...its obvious. so we'll just have a lot to talk about over the phone when the time comes. I can barely wrap my mind around it, really.