Glad things are working out for you.
I was thinking about your initial post and came up with a few analogies of my own.

I feel like sometimes my body is inhabited by a demon. The "person" you experience is NOT me. I am purely a vessel with no emotions or control; I just go along for the ride that my demon chooses to take.
I have no soul, no purpose, no reason. I am actually not alive - I am an empty shell