I isolate a lot. When I'm hurting to much, I hide my pain. I have been teach to keep things to myself. I guess I learn that lesson very well. When I can't hardly go on, I struggle between asking for help and isolation. If I ask for help, I feel I bother and that I don't have a right to ask. Then I feel guilty so I rarely ask.

I push people away from me because the feeling of guiltyness is so strong and that I don't deserve their help or their caring.

Hiding my dark feelings and isolation had been a part of me all my life.

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