Argh. I was up half the night just unable to slowdown. I would doze a little and then wake up for a while. This was after I took Seroquel 175mg (my usual dose and PRN together) and 100mg of Trazodone. I should have been out cold.

While I was lying in bed, my mind was like a flipbook, complete with flashing lights and lots of static. I was thinking about a million things including trying to figure out what to do with the kids if I were to give in to the thoughts I have been having about sui.

Today I feel emotionally drained and a little wired on the inside.