Hi ((rainbow)) I doubt that I will hear from my T at all before my next appt. Unless she thought i was SU perhaps she would. In general she doesn't communicate via email and will respond if asked a direct question (which I didn't send in my email). I know it's a holiday and I don't believe she's traveling but anyhow I know she will be in her office next week and I am seeing her on Thursday. I will not call her as I feel like it's too awkward as scary as the face to face will be.

I feel a little less scared but I do feel embarrassed, angry, hurt and from what others have posted I don't think she will shame me but based on childhood experiences it sure does feel like that's a possibility.

Thanks for listening.