I'm going into The VA in St.Cloud,MN. For help with my Anxiety,Stress,Depression.and obsession with destroying Clothing.
Only a few days till I leave for There, been thinking way to much. planning the stay out in my head,which is no good.. I sure hope to get the Help I need, I'm SO TIRED of living in my head..Haven't been able to get more than 2 hours sleep at a time for the Past week....
I bought 3 new pair of jeans, but I'm scared to put them on.don't want to destroy them...
it has been snowing a lot, so I don't get out much, And I don't have many Friends up here, So I'm ALONE A LOT.. so tired of that...
Been spending time on the couch watchin TV.
Got a Shower Today,last shower was a few days ago..
Body feels Worn out,no energy,hands get a bit shaky.

I know I'm doing a good thing,by going into treatment, but it is still stressing me out, I always have to feeling of waiting for the other shoe to Drop....

Thanks, I needed to Vent a bit......