Hi Rebecca,

I believe that we do sometimes 'vote with our feet' and our actions tell us a lot about ourselves.

You said that maybe you 'secretly' don't want these jobs. Jmo's advice is good, and a therapist will help you to find out what is blocking you here, and what it is you have to deal with.

You certainly did the right thing coming to PC, we make a lot of progress here on the forums, by sharing and reflecting each other. Hope you stick around.

Cheers, M