Same here :S
I do try to go out and meet people, but .... it never works out....
I just don't get what is the problem.
I go to Uni, it's my 2nd year now, but I didn't manage to make any friends there.
I do talk with people during the lectures, but ...
I never manage to become friends with any of them.
The only time I had friends, was until 8th grade, after that I've changed schools, as most people do in my country after this grade, and people I called friends went to different schools I went to different also, and what was it, they made new friends there and didn't had time for me anymore and I was never quick in finding new friends... after that time I've never had any real friends. I don't know what happened...
I somehow feel like I keep pushing people away, or other times I somehow feel that most people I meet don't really like me. I don't know if it's true, but I just have that feeling. Though actually I did met someone who seemed to like me, but he was interested in me in the way that I wasn't interested in him, so ....
And the fact that I study away from home and have to speak in another language all the time doesn't help either, as I sometimes don't understand what people are talking about, especially when they're using a lot of slangs...
I do feel very lonely most of my time here, even when I try to go out and be arround people... it doesn't help... I just can't make any friends... I do try to be myself all the time, but I think that this doesn't help either...
There are times when I feel like it would be easier if I would just pack and go home, but ... I do want to finish uni, but I just don't know if I have enough strength to keep going like this for another year :S
It really kills me that I've no one I could call when I'm feeling bad or no one whom I could invite to go out any time I want to or anyone who would call me and would be happy to see me...
I really thought that my years at Uni would be different...
Or my life at all would be different...
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