I spent the day alone and very sad. At least i had my Cat who I love. I feel very stupid and this post may sound ridiculas. I reconnected with an ex bf who was abusive verbally to me and emotionally. As usually happens, he lied to me and let me down by standing me up today and then stealing some money from me etc. When I called him he acted as if he did not care. He never acknowledged anything and then I became so angry and was yelling. I could not control how angry he made me. He is so selfish. He invited me over and then I had canceled other plans then he decided to not inivte me and he said he had not gotten any money back. He also kept refusing my calls. I was so mad I then became depressed. This is so unhealthy for me and my Dr. keeps telling me to keep away. I had for four months, but then saw him again on the street. I also was away in another state for a year and half and he was in jail. If I see him he throws me into these PTSD episodes and depressions. What is wrong with me? I feel so alone and now my phone is out.