I'm good at going to school when I'm in alternative programs. I went everyday and the students there.. actually almost viewed me as an outsider right away. I didn't have their same attitude.. a few of them drank and did drugs, and from my appearance I apparently don't like the type of girl who would have any attendance problems.. or any problems at all. I was viewed as (and I know this cause I was told) the innocent angel barbie doll and I had somehow fallen into their world and by many I wasn't welcome. One of the friends I made said right off the bat she thought I would be a snob, and though she had ignored that and become my friend anyway, it still kind of hurt cause I didn't know that I came off that way. I was also called strange once people started getting to know me.. and that played a bit toll on my self-esteem as well.

I want to go back to an alternative program, even if it does mean facing those same types of judgement there.. But as I said before I'm still in the middle of that..

I can't get along with people that well my own age.. Lots of them are interested in things I have no time for, and I'm seen as strange by it or a loser. Kids younger than me I seem to gravitate toward but I can't get along with them either because our maturity levels are different.. Older people haven't ever really seemed to give me the time of day because I'm younger. I get along great with adults.. but that's pretty much it. Going back to my high school wouldn't help. That school is full of kids who only stick to their group and everyone ignores the loner kids. If you didn't make friends with kids before you came to my school, you're pretty much screwed.