Well.. the problem is that I do risk it and I usually get shut down. I know he doesn't mean too.. but it happens. My mother started playing her games on me today and it sent me off and when I went to talk to my Dad about it he told me just not to worry about it; as that was what he does. I know that is the most logical answer.. but he is her ex husband and I'm her child. This is happening to me directly and he's not longer in the line of fire anymore.. Plus he's 40+ and I'm 15 and while I know he knows what's best as he's already been through it all, I'm not as capable to shut own my emotions so easily.

We spoke a lot today, and he is like me.. we talk a lot.. and tend to take over the conversation. When we talk it usually ends up in a huge discussion on the world and how life works and how people are (he's studied religion, science, and psychology A LOT so these conversations aren't just piles of bs and they do help sometimes).. but I wanted to talk about my issues with ex friends, and every time I got into it a little he would take over and over-explain for the hundredth time things I already knew. I listened regardless and I love our talks.. but he usually talks over me and things I wanted to say gets forgotten.. especially since, in a matter of seconds, the conversation moves onto other things.

There was one time a few weeks ago when I got so frustrated that I snapped.. I yelled out in the middle of his sentence and said "Why don't you ever listen to me?!" My tone was harsh and uncalled for.. and it shut down the conversation right then and there.. I can't seem to get out my honest feelings unless I'm mad.. which only makes him upset and sets us further apart..