(((Eskie)))) I think you are doing the best you can... and are trying very hard to manage. Perhaps, with the animals help, you are reaching a point where you do feel like you can let out more of your feelings...but aren't to the point of addressing them all yet? Maybe not, maybe you have been holding back for so long, you are now completely overwhelmed! I trust you will continue to talk WITH your doctor... and allow him to help you at the pace he thinks is best for you... my T has said, Sometimes going slower helps you heal faster... or something to that effect. I wish good stuff for you!