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Nov 26, 2010, 03:32 AM
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Member Since: Oct 2010
Location: Ohio
Posts: 14
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I can relate to the feelings of stupidity but you are not stupid. Our hearts and even our minds can cause us to make bad decisions because we are wrapped up in our emotions/feelings. I hope you never contact this man again and if he contacts you I hope you will be strong enough to say "no" and tell him to not bother you again.
Seven years ago I met a man. We talked and I felt sad for him and the way his childhood was and the losses he had gone through and I thought I could help him. That was mistake number 1 because we can't help anyone if they don't want the help. Mistake number 2 was staying with him when he started abusing me physically, emotionally, mentally and sexually. I still thought I could help him. I thought God would change him. My friends and family told me to get away from him so I would break up with him only to get back together after many times of him saying and pretending he changed. Two years ago we married. Again everyone told me not to do it. At the alter my to be husband looked like he wished he wasn't there. Suddenly I heard a voice, a loud voice in my ear saying "DON'T DO IT". I heard it 3 times. With all my heart and soul I truly without a doubt believe it was God speaking to me. Yet I married him anyway in fear of making my family mad and hurting them ( they seem me go through h*** because of this man for years breaking up and getting back together etc...). I know now it was a huge mistake because the marriage has been so bad and abusive. This is where the feeling of stupidity comes in. I tell myself all the time how stupid I was to marry him especially when God himself told me not to. I didn't want to hurt anyone or make them mad and I thought he would change. He didn't change, it only got worse. I learned the hard way. Please get away from this man you speak of before it's too late like it is for me. Please listen to people. They speak the truth and are wise when they tell you to get away from him. Love is not worth it if abuse comes with it. I have learned the hard way but I sure have learned. I just don't know what to do now in my situation.
Be safe and remember you are not stupid but I do understand the feelings you are having.
Take care.....broken_hearted
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Originally Posted by Artsywoman45
I spent the day alone and very sad. At least i had my Cat who I love. I feel very stupid and this post may sound ridiculas. I reconnected with an ex bf who was abusive verbally to me and emotionally. As usually happens, he lied to me and let me down by standing me up today and then stealing some money from me etc. When I called him he acted as if he did not care. He never acknowledged anything and then I became so angry and was yelling. I could not control how angry he made me. He is so selfish. He invited me over and then I had canceled other plans then he decided to not inivte me and he said he had not gotten any money back. He also kept refusing my calls. I was so mad I then became depressed. This is so unhealthy for me and my Dr. keeps telling me to keep away. I had for four months, but then saw him again on the street. I also was away in another state for a year and half and he was in jail. If I see him he throws me into these PTSD episodes and depressions. What is wrong with me? I feel so alone and now my phone is out.
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