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Nov 26, 2010, 03:52 AM
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Member Since: Oct 2010
Location: Ohio
Posts: 14
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 My heart aches to be loved, to be held, cared about, to have a husband who is my best friend, who I can trust in every way, who has Godly values, who has compassion for others, who wants to help those less fortunate, etc..... I'm sure you get the picture. My husband is the opposite and it breaks my heart. He is angry all the time because he sees other people travel, buy new cars, etc...... and we are unable to at this time. The anger has consumed him as if it's eating him alive and he takes it out on me. He is cold, heartless, and angry. I can't be close to him. He won't let me. He won't reach out. He goes to work then comes home and sits in his chair and watches TV. That is his life. He won't even come to bed at night more than half of the time. I want us to be best friends but I don't even feel like his wife. He doesn't treat me like his wife. In front of his family or friends he puts on a facade so they will think he is this perfect husband to me. As soon as we are alone he treats me like I am invisable or I don't matter to him. I am so lonely and so hurt. I've cried so much it's hard to believe I have any tears left but more seem to come. I am also very angry. Angry at myself for marrying him. Angry at him for not putting to use what our marriage counseler is telling him to do. He won't even try. I don't want a divorce but I can't live the rest of my life like this.
Thank you for listening. I appreciate it.
Brokenhearted
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