Come on now! You are preaching to the choir! You know you aren't going to snap out of it but you also know that drugging yourself in this way is only making things worse!

Out of control? I get it, all of us on here do! You are giving in to the self destructive nature or the internal battle.

Please take a minute and refocus! PLEASE!

Listen to me, you and I know it will never be the way we want it to be. We all know that don't we?

But that does not mean that you cannot have joy or experience love! Only you can deny yourself of either of them. No disease can totally take that away from you or I!

And control? Think about it. If we were all honest we would admit and acknowledge that is only a relative and subjective ability. NO ONE IS TOTALLY IN CONTROL! NO ONE!

So while that does not make it any easier it should make you remember that you have nothing to be ashamed of or to feel sorry for.

And worse yet you are relinquishing what "little" control you even recognize you had or have!

STOP being the problem and START being the master of your being as best you can!

And I remind you again. If you give in and "fail" we all fail together and with you!