hello everyboyd

I don't know where to post this but I am very scared. I just had a talk with my dad about how i was worried i was a sociopath and how we all get crazy, crazy, almost evil thoughts.
Sometimes I feel evil, like an evil person, a bad seed, evil for the rest of my life, but maybe its stress, anxiety, or cannabis intoxication.

I have a lot of trouble talking about my feelings, it almost feels theres people in my head telling me not to tell anyone how I feel. But I guess i'm not schizophrenic, i remember i used to hope I was BECAUSE that would provvide an explanation.

I spent the last couple days saying to myself "hope I'm not an evil person, I just DONT want to harm anyone. "

I do feel almost psychotic sometimes, would anyone know the symptoms? I do feel very detached, and I SUCK at social things, to the point where I almost feel like an alien sometimes. I almost feel like I can't understand people formulaicly (sorry, bad spelling). But like I'm DESTINED to never understand people,

Maybe I'm just being paranoid, but I'd like to get help just TO STAY ON THE SAFE SIDE