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Nov 26, 2010, 07:22 PM
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Member Since: Dec 2008
Location: Canada
Posts: 212
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Thanks guys, I really appreciate the support. But it hasn't gotten easier. I'm now starring off into space more, exhausted, distracted from school and home, everything. I get real moody when the voice bothers me alot.
Today at school I almost called my dad to come get me because it was so bad. Teachers kept telling me to pay attention, that I kept on day dreaming or staring off into space, my friends kept saying that too. Well it was true. I hadn't had a good sleep in over a week without having nightmares or usual hallucinations and waking up at odd times of the night, or even concentrated and finished homework. Just today it was different, I was shaking, it felt like I wasn't even controlling my movements and voice, I spoke fast, I was shaking, my writing was extremely messy and sloppy.
I always caught myself gripping onto my arm, as if to get myself, my real self out again. I'd look at my arm and my hand is gripping onto it, my knuckles are just white as can be. Now my arm hurts to touch. It was the same last night, I'd be hitting my arm, my other arm. But I have no idea why, I didn't even notice I was doing that.
It's like I'm not even controlling my body sometimes. It really scared me today. 
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