So the holiday was OK. It was better than I thought. I am convinced, though, that my inlaws are angry with us because we didn't have dinner with them. Originally we were going to have dinner at my house and they were coming. When I was in the hospital at the beginning of this month, I told my mom that I didn't think that I could handle the holiday and she offered to do it at her house. I told my inlaws and they refused to go to my parents' house (no reason given). So my husband and I decided that we would do dinner at my parents' and then go to his parents' for dessert. Well, it's a good thing my mom put dessert out early so my kids could have some because when we got to my inlaws' they had cleaned up, everything was put away, there was no evidence that there was ever a meal of dessert or anything. There was not even the smell of turkey in their house. They didn't offer us any coffee, or any dessert. In fact, they apparently expected my husband to do some work getting things out of the attic, but they didn't ask so he didn't do it. He got an earful today about how much they depend on him, how much they need him to do things, etc.

Last summer they told my husband that they thought I hated them. I was so hurt, and we were never very close to begin with, but now I feel so uncomfortable around them. It feels like they don't like me. Of course they don't. I took their only son (slave) away from them.

Anyway, I can't tell if these perceptions are real (they feel like it) or if I am just being paranoid.

They did once google my youngest son's name to see if there were any birth announcements, and they found one that I had posted on a parenting website. I used a name that was easy to figre out if someone knew me, and I had done a bit of complaining about them on that site. I am sure they read it and hold it against me. I am sure they google me and my kids all the time to find out if I am saying bad things about them. I hope that they can't find me here. I don't think I have any real personal information here...

I also wonder if I have been to this site and then go to Facebook, and vice versa if people can "follow" my actions online and learn things about me. I try to remain anonymous here because there are people in my Facebook who don't need to know what is going on in terms of BP. I have already talked in person to the people who I want to have theinformation.