Well, temp-t was a dud. Sorry, that sux. I am sure there are several others in your area you can test drive, maybe find a model that works for you

Sounds like you have quite a few personal things going on, and it would be really helpful if you could talk to your T. I hope you find a way of getting out to meet with him. As far as the antidepressants, I have tried several, and they all work differently for everyone. Just because one made you suicidal doesn't mean another one will. After trying several ad's my pdoc tried me out on a mood stabilizer. That was weird because I am not bipolar, but it worked. Just goes to show you that there are plenty of options out there.

good luck with all of this, and keep us updated!