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Originally Posted by bpd2
It's frustrating to both of us that I can't maintain stability. He says I am strong enough, after 4 years, to do it. I can, about a third of the time. The other two-thirds, I'm a wreck, living two lives at once--trying to be in the room with others, but really in my head screaming.
So...I need alternatives to therapy-as-stability support.......If the stability depends on me, that's an iffy way to go. In the end, of course, I have to reach that....but, let's face it: I'm bipolar and borderline, so....like that's gonna happen.........
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You are strong, you have survived alot being BP and BPD.... but it's not "strength" that stabilises your moods... It's a combination of the right meds, learning techniques to help and being able to put them in place.
Yes, there is a lot which has to come from you to be able to live well with both conditions, but your illness isn't because you are not strong enough; it is a function of your genes, environment and your experiences.
The strongest weightlifter can't do gymnastics without learning the techniques, practising them as well as being flexible enough...
its the same with the way we have to be able to think to get through the moods, learning techniques to manage moods and recognise signs and putting it into practice and being flexible enough to bend without breaking - its totally not strenth.