I'm with you guys :S.
Alone too.
The only people I have are my family - parents and sisters, but... I'm away from home and I keep questioning myself why I did that ... why I wanted to go to study in other country, I felt safer back home, and most of the time I really feel like I won't take being this lonely any more, I would really like to go back, but I know that I would dissapoint my family by doing this, and I do want to finish my studies ... but it kills to do everything all alone here, make myself dinner every evening all alone, go shopping all alone ....I spended my 20th birthday alone... isn't it pathetic... :S I would like to do loads of stuff, would love to travel arround this country, where're so many things I still haven't seen here, but feel stupid doing things like that alone. Though I do live in a flat with three other people, but rarely see them and they all have their boyfriends or girlfriends and friends and they don't seem to be interested in having one friend more, and the fact, that I was never able to make friends easily doesn't help either.
I feel tired of being alone. It's not just friends that I feel need of. I never really had a normal serious relationship. There is this one guy now, but not only that he's 18 years older than me, he also lives back in my home country...

And it also hurts that I used to be quite close with one of my sisters, but during the last couple of years she really changed and I can't really get along with her anymore...