This is tough.

Neri, I believe what you say. I think we have to find a way through it. There is beauty in the world and there can be more than "merely surviving" that makes it worth it. You are right, evil is never destroyed, we are all alone, no happy endings. But we can find good within ourselves, find our own courage, connect with others so that we have help and support, become our own heroes, and continue the journey.

Problem is depression won't let us see or do any of that. I know and feel how much you are hurting. Please don't give up hope. We are here to help with the "alone" part and hopefully some of the others.

Bad things will never stop happening but good things will also never stop happening. We can seek out these good things and choose to increase the amount of "good" by our thoughts and actions.

Something for everyone to think about... when you post about feeling bad here, you give others the opportunity to help, understand, offer support and kindness. Which increases the amount of good in the world.

So I'd say for right now your "part" in life is to keep working to feel better, take care of yourself, and allow others to help you. And have some faith and believe us when we say that there is color and brilliance out there waiting for you if you can get through this.