But mistyeyed, something you should remember are you are who you are in your head. If your head is in that place then getting part of it out could help. But you have to give it time.... Much time... just don't give up!

Sannah... I've just recently read your signature, and something hit me about it, I actually feel very trapped in my life.... Meaning I'm under constand supervison by my parents, and don't have the money to get out of the house until my loans come in for school. and I hope to get a job. But until then The SI happens some of the time when I feel trapped... like I'm in a place where I can't get out/someone else is in my head. Feeling trapped isn't a good feeling. And I hate it becuase right now I have to be quite in the morning so I can't play my instruments but I just don't do it in the afternoon, and by evening comes I don't like to disterbe the neighbors. So I just end up not doing the things that I love... because I'm to concerned with the noice. I just hate my life.... and that leads to feeling trapped.

I'm trapped... and now I will hopefully be able to be less trapped when we move in to a house in the next few days. where I can be noisey... that is if i get up the energy to practice. I'm trapped not only in my head but physically and I hope that it will help after I'm not as physically trapped. But all I can do is hope.

I do find that I have so many ideas, that I don't know where to start.... or what one to do first so I end up on the computer for much of the day. Which isn't very helpfull. since I want to do other things but again I'm trapped. And I think that feeling leads to trying to find an outlet to feel free again.... so It comes out in my head, and then through SI. It's not pretty but I just have to find a way to not feel so trapped and also start to do things.... some how??