I described me so closely I almost cried. I have tried to be closer to my brother but he just won't have anything to do with me. I guess he feels I am "broken" because I am bipolar. It really hurts sometimes. I live alone and the only person in my family who really loved me was my mom and she died over 5 years ago. I wish there was a magic answer that would make it all better for you but there isn't. I surround myself and take comfort in my dogs. At least when I get upset or are having problems with the bipolar they don't judge me!