Neri for what it is worth I wish I did not exist..I do not see the world as bleak I think as you do but all in all..I would if I could vote to not have created me....sounds so bad when I read it ....I wake most days disappointed I woke up....I would not DO anything to end it all but all in all it sucks now and I dont see a good tomorrow coming.....I imagine there is but I just dont see it..and maybe that means its US we are not seeing the good to come..I hope so anyhow

HUGS AND SORRY YOU FEEL SO CRAPPY