Hi my name is Steve and I have so many issues that I don't even know where to begin, I have severe trust issues with anyone outside my immediate family. Ive been as strong as I can be but my family depends on me to be emotionally strong for them and always be that rock in their lives and I don't know how much longer I can continue. I'm a child of divorce and was very physically abused by my mother and continue to be emotionally abused by her to this very day. I got married when I was too young and tried my hardest to juggle my duties as a husband and to take care of my family thru my parents divorce. I took care of everyone as best I could for as long as I could but I never felt like I did a good job with anything or with anyone. It's been years since I got divorced because of the abuse my former wife. She used to break me down whenever she got the chance and at my most fragile moment in my life. I have a daughter and I'm a single father by I always feel like I'm walking on egg shells in my life, every decsion I make I feel that I'm disappointing someone and I don't know if my conscience is too much or what but I'm so tired of feeling drained physically and emotionally. I noticed that I talk to myself to give myself reassurince in everything that I do. I want a full life and to be able to really enjoy things and be ok. I want to be a full person and not a shell of who I want to be. I have a loving gf and want to very much be the person she needs and not what I am now. She gets frustrated that I don't trust her enough to talk to her about my life and what has happened before and what is going on currently. I do love her very much and I listen to her and work extra hard to fulfill her needs but her biggest frustration is trying to get me to talk to her and not just hold everything inside. I'm just a big mess and I don't know what to do anymore. Any help or advice would be great. This is the most I've ever spoken about myself emotionally in my whole life. Thank you