I know its hard to accept. man for me it was like tearing my heart out. because I was raised in a big family. My mom didn't have alot of time to spend with us. in my family the oldest took over some of the mothering responsibilities while my mom dealt with the babies and an alcoholic husband and some partying herself.the highlight of my day wasn't curling up with mom it was sitting on my sisters back combing her hair while she read to me and fed a baby brother while a younger sister was combing my hair reading her homework aloud before school while mom was cooking breakfast for 12 children and a hung over husband. I don't remember any time with my mom until I was in high school and there were only the last of us left at home and by then she considered me too old for cuddling and was more worried about people thinking she was lez if she put her arm around me. Sometimes I pace back and forth here with all that pent up need for a mom. but its not going to happen for one my mom lives in another state and two its just not allowed in the therapy world for my therapists to be that substitute mom. I know its not going to happen and I know that to entertain the thoughts would only hurt me more so when those thoughts come I nip them just as fast and stay on track of what is really what.

Your therapist like my first one told me said to you -no. Ok heres another way of thinking about it as far as accepting yout therapists point of view - if she was anyone else in your life - relative, friend, husband, lover, children, boss co worker and so on and that person asked you to do something that you can't possibly and legally give them so you said no. would you expect that person to accept what you say and not try to force their views on you either in real life or in their fantasys? or even strangers and a rape situation do you expect no to mean no and expect that person to accept that you said no and no is no no matter what? Well its the same thing here. No has been said and no means no no matter what. your not accepting that is not going to change that no has been said. So now you can either accept it and get to work on what needs to be done to take care of the problems in your life which are the reasons you are seeing her or you can not accept her saying no and your refusalt to accept it interfers with your therapy time to the point where she says thats it we're done. Then instead of enjoying what time you could have had together as therapist/client you don't even have that. No one can make you accept it but your therapist does not have to put up with watching you make yourself miserable over it or put up withyour not accepting it interferring with the therapy time. Right now you have her its not as a mom but you have her. its up to you if you want to keep her or lose her. good luck in what you decide to do.