how often do you see her? if its weekly maybe you can try going every other week and in between have an activity about nurturing yourself to do. This helped me alot. my therapist would tell me "ok we're not seeing each other next week so I want you to spend so many minutes a day taking a buble bath and then put body lotion on. (this is something a mother would do for a child but I was doing it for myself so my therapist was teaching me how to mother myself.) Another activity I had to do was buy "the cat and the hat". Take a bath, get jammies on and read the book before bed.

And yes it may come down to therapy with this therapist ending. But the question here if that happens is what has been taken care of so that it won't happen again? The reason I say this is because I have had 19 therapists and these thoughts have come with 6 of them. So from personal experience right now while in the thick of it is when to take care of it. The first step letting the therapist know the thoughts are there is done. being told no is done. Now you need to learn how to mother yourself so that next time the situation happens you can nip it a little bit easier, and the time after that it will be even easier and so on. Im not going to be stupid and say its not going to hurt and its never going to happen again but by knowing how to be a mother to yourself you will be able to recognize when the thoughts come again and will know how to take care of it so that you aren't just hanging with a no.

How about if you talk to your therapist. tell her you know she says no and right now it hurts like anything but you know that its time to have her teach you to be a mother to yourself. I can almost promise she will jump at this and will give you so many ideas on where to start. My therapist was full of ideas from bubble baths to treating myself to things I coulldn't even imagine a mother would do. and I still use her bubble bath idea every night before bed.