I know i can't change my bf. I just am very frustrated, upset, depressed about the whole situation. If you've read any of my other posts you know this is making my anxiety level go through the roof, i'm having panic attacks more now and its just not a good thing for me to have to deal with. I feel for my bf's neice and i know my bf is a good man and he wants to help her but he is the type that gets taken advantage of. I do love my bf to peices that is the main reason i keep trying to work it out. I have thought of leaving many times because i don't want to deal with his family but i know i would miss him terribly. I thought maybe i would move and still see him but i'd have my space. Its not all about finances. However right now i am not in the position to move. If i did i wouldn't want anyone else, i wouldn't want to move on and i'd be miserable if we broke up. This is my problem. I feel like i'm damed if i do and damed if i don't. I know alot of people don't agree with me and how i feel about the situation and how i'm dealing with it. I just really needed to vent, get things off my chest and was looking for some support and hoped that maybe a few people would get what i was going through and be on my side since i do feel all alone in this.
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