My husband was one of those "I don't want to grow up, I'm a toy's r' us kid"......well, it was his lack of growing up & taking responsibility that drove me away from him. Know you don't have that problem.....but growing up & older is not that bad. I never had problems....never remembered what birthday I was celebrating anyway most of the time. But I can honestly say at 57 & where I am in life, I couldn't be more content with there really being only one thing I really want to resolve to feel complete (getting my horses here with me). I have never been happier & feeling more sure of myself....even though I still do go through anxiety attacks that aren't as bad as before. The fact that things are becoming more clear in my life makes any older age so worth it.

Hope you find the peace in a few months & don't worry your self to pieces before April 2. I was going to say if your Birthday had been on April 1, you could have looked at it as an april fools joke...lol.