{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Debbie}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} Of course, you are "allowed" to have good days! You Need them! You hear the "but" coming? LOL I'm sorry. Been sitting here wracking my brain on how to put it and it's giving me a headache, so I'm just gonna say it, ok?

It's a well known fact that what works for one person doesn't necessarily work for another, but I've got to share so you can give it some thought.

What works for me is that I've noticed that when I'm having a good day, I can handle problems a lot easier. It's easier to talk about things that I can't figure out and if there's any input, I can accept it easier without it confusing me or weighing me down. When I'm having a bad day, I may get out what's bothering me, but what *I* really want is empathy much more than problem solving because I can't think clearly, anway... on those days.

You said your T suggested that you were "avoiding"? How about you give it a slightly different perspective and call it "repressing"? Sounds like you're holding in a whole lot of stuff that is screaming to get out but you "sense some internal fighting going on". To keep it in? Debbie, it's going to come out, one way or the other, when you just can't handle it anymore. It's been MY experience, being the control freak over myself that I am, that it's better to "allow" it to come out bit by bit rather than all at once.

Remember, this is what has worked for ME. Not saying that it will for you, but I hope I've given you some food for thought... and I hope you know how much I care and can empathize with you.

{{{{{{{{{{Debbie}}}}}}}}}}}}}