I wrote a couple of poems about my feelings and emailed them to my T. One was about what holding her hand does for me. She has always told me that our goal of therapy is for ME to be able to give the child part what she needs. She said she loved my poems, and then she told me the above again.

I got so upset when I read this, and emailed back about how I know that's the goal, and I want to stop my pattern, but there is a small doubt in my mind. I still want to get that love from HER and I don't know if I can give it to myself.

What if this therapy doesn't work? My H just thinks I want to go move in with her, and he has said that about my other Ts too.I tried to explain about my child parts and IFS, and said maybe he should come with me so T can explain it better. Maybe I got him to understand a little. I don't want him coming with me yet.

I am so depressed now. I know my T didn't mean I couldn't get the love from her now, when I still need it, but when she talks about my goal I feel hurt and unloved all over again.